I REALLY HAVE TO SAY !!

TO BE HONEST ! (:

im really in LOVE with DANIEL ! <3

woohooo ! haha !

TODAY'S A REAL GOOD DAY !
smuackks !
gonna post later luh !
now gonna bathe first .
jjust came baqq frm redcross ):
wahahha .
LOVES <3

do takecares ! wahahah (:

our memories are just like these words inside this notebook .
%` it will be kept & LOCKED forever & follow me wherever i go till the end of time `%

29 10 06

hmmm .
was my last round serving choir le ):
sadd !
wahh !
wahahaha .
hmmmm ,
was FUNN ?!
woke up early
but went baq to sleep .
my stupid brother luh .
early morning play com
& its SO NOISY luhsss ~
luckily i dont share com with him (:
if not com will be LAGG luhs !

thanks daddy & sister for buying NEW com for me
& my stupid brother bought his OWN NEWW com ):
wahahah -

alright .
hmmm .
dhen went to meet yunyu .
she went off with wunyen 1st to church
dhen met her at tanah merah .
wahahha !

rushed to cons room
dhen prayed
& stuff .
went to peep !
teehee -
dhen wenling passed me my coke (:
thanks girl .
& have to thank the whad daniel who helped me got my coke frm wunyen (:
teehee !

alright .
dhen went into hall 10 !.
blah blah blah~
looked ard .
didnt see dear ard ):
knew he went to ton !
heh !
hmmm .
dhen after service ,
went for debrief .
saw him (:
he dyed his hair ?!
wahahaha .
i've NOTHING to say .
teehee (:

met darl ,
didnt wait for wenling & ppl
cos they always ps me
cos i dont care ! (:
hahah .
hmmm .
darl saw me !
she hugged me !
hahah .
im happy (:
went for cell .
blah blah blah ~
paid wunyen $$
but she asked me to buy her food cann liao (:
dhen she asked me pass it to her outside
budden she changed her mind -.-
& me , darl & jas were waiting for her outside .
saw pam !
my darling !
hahah .
she's darn cute .
didnt see her for a LONGGGGGG TIMEE !
wahahah .
i knw darl was angry
cos she doesnt like to wait ,
so i quickly passed the food to wunyen
& went off .
TO PREVENT darl frm getting angry (:
hahaha -
pam tagged along too (:
how sweet of her man !
iloveher
& i miss her -

hmmm .
headed to TM
sort of skipped the behind part of cell .
haha !
hmmm .
saw my bag
& i wanted to buy
but no more stock ):
aunty say next week .
but not going to church
bcos got redcross AMBULANCE COURSE ):
i hate that !!
hahah .
i dont like REDCROSS !
esp EVAC & FIRST AID !
haha .
guess ppl knw why ..
bcos i went for first aid for three times
& i failed two times -.-
i passed the last time !
FINALLY !
teehee (:
wahahha .
im PROUD of myself .
there's NTH to be SHAME about (:
haha .
every human makes mistake .
i will learn frm alll mistakess (:

hmmm .
& im gonna get my GOLDEN NICEEE BAGG !!
wahahaha .
hmmm .
darl complained that she's hungry .
so went to mummum (:
she wants KFC -.-
haha
went with her & jas .
saw this irritating girl .
she bloody irritating .
keeps on staring at me -.-
like im scared ?!
I AM NOT !
haha .
she must be a NOOB then .
oops =x
GOD forgive me for scolding with those words =x

then doris msg-ed me (:
she wanted to go bugis ltr .
so coincidence luh !
darl's meeting her sis there too .
so aft eating .
sent jas off .
& headed to bugis .
darl was drama enuff -.-
the mrt stopped & the lights went off .
she NEARLY CRIED ?!
haha .
luckily i was there to comfort her .
haha .
im not scared (:
dhen went off .
took another train -.-
reached bugis ,
shopped with darl's sis .
sungee was CUTE ?!
she bought the cardi i love the most
but nvm (:
i will buy it another day !
haha -

dhen shopped til 8plus ?!
went to meet doris & daniel .
dey are getting married soon luh !
im so happy for them .
went to buy the things they need for their new HOUSE (:
ilove my cousin DORIS !
hahah .
alright .
her going to be husband is called DANIEL
& my boyfriend is call DANIEL too (:
the world is really so SMALL (:
so many ppl with the SAME NAME (:
mine is DANIEL FOO (:
wahahha .
lol -.-
blah blah blah ~

crapped with doris
& stuffs again .
hahah .
dhen headed home .
daniel drove me home first ..
on the way ,
dear called me (:
wahahha .
oops =x
imean ALFRED .
hahah .
hmmm .
crapped & crapped .
still the same .
as usual ,
quarrelled again (:
the play kinda quarrel luh !
wahahha .
ilove him (:

alright .
reached home
blah blah blah
& stuffs .
bathe
& packed my bag for redcross tml ):
arks .
got test for NCOs ):
prayed to GOD !

GOD is ALMIGHTY (:
hmmm .
seriously ,
i knw i have changed (:
i have changed into a better person .
a better girl (:
yes ppl say that too ,
but i only realise it just now .
bcos i DIDNT scold vulgarities anymore .
& i quitted *****
& i have no more ahlian behaviour (:
& I AM NOT AN AHLIAN (:
wahahah !
thank GOD !
i see my LIFE CHANGED (:
really meaningful luh !
the song i sang in choir for the last two weeks .
really ,
I AM CHANGED ,
IN THE PRESENCE OF A HOLY GOD (:
im happy !
haha !
i see so many ppl ard me smiling (:
i have think thru ,
who says i cant smile everyday like how i did in the past ?!
i can !
no ,
alfred & junyi
cant take away my smile at all !
ONLY GOD CAN TAKE IT AWAY
bcos my smile BELONGS TO GOD (:
& GOD WANTS TO SEE ME SMILE
& i SHALL SMILE !
no one is gonna changed my life
EXCEPT JESUS CHRIST (:
today's sermon was REALLY MEANINGFUL !
wahahha (:
loves <3

thank god .
GOD had done many things in my life
to make it SO BEAUTIFUL (:
smuacckss !
im forever the SAME CHEERUFUL tancheeyen as i was in the past ,
that you ppl wanted to ssee me baq (:
& im gonna be baq the girl again (:

i LOVE TOOTH DECAY !
wahaha -

he's MY LIFE (:

i ADORE HIM (:


TOOTH DECAY !

smuackks (:

28 10 06 ;

todayy !!
tough ):
woke up quite late .
slacked .
dont feel like going to school
bcos got FOOTDRILL GOLD ACCRED !! ):
hmmm .
prayed to god ,
hopin that i wont be late .
THANK GOD !
im not late !
haha -
loves <3

hmmm .
went to change .
ohmygoodness !
i got my badges mixed up !
i badged up anyhow !
ohman !
wahaha -
lol !

hmmm ,
huijia , pohying & jiazheng dont wanto take -.-
dont wanto take dhen dont come luhs ~
hmmm .
dhen the fcuking pohying keep influencing dhem ,
thats whad matt & hanisah said ):
i jus follow .
haha
hmmm
dont understand why !
why mus listen to whad pohying say ?!
she's not the LEADER lo !
yes ,
the leader of LOSERS ?!
lol !

hmmm .
she keep on giving me , matthew & hanisah attitude luh !
dont make me give a BIG PUNCH on her jiaobin luhs
& when HQ sirs talk to them ,
the fcuking attitude they gave to the sirs ,
is fcuking UNPLEASANT luhs !
how will it reflect on our schh ?
walao ~
i hate it !
hmmm .
dhen blah blah blah !
theory was EASYYYY !
super duper EASYYYY !
hmmm .
dhen was practical !
was super duper FASTTTTTTT !
ONLY less than 10mins ?!
wahaha -
dhen was COMMANDING !
diao ~
could shout out but wasnt given enuff time ,
shit !
teared down .
hais !
hmmm .
i was so afraid that i might fail !
wahaha .
dhen went to change ,
& stuffs !
dont feel like saying everything !
nth much (:
came baq ,
release result time !
passed !
yayyay !
pohying & jiazheng FAILED -
lols !
jiazheng could do commanding ,
& huijia PASSED (:
CONGRATES !
see ,
i told u ,
you cann make it !
dont because of whad THAT POHYING say ,
influence ur mind set !
you cann make it !
she jus wanto make u all fail
& retake with her !

llook ,
i dont go for trainings .
i go only for one time
& i passed .
bcos we mus have faith in ourselves understand ?!
bcos i have faith in GOD & also in myself ,
thats why i PASSED (:

THANK GOD !


hmmm .
dhen went to kovan ,
went to meet doris .
chatted .
bought things
& stuffs (:
knw dhis two new guys .
lol -.-
dhen blah blah blah ~
nth much .
jus SHOPPING ! (:
weeeee !
wahahahas .
hmmm .
dhen khairul msg-ed me (:
malcolm msg-ed me too (:
i knw darl asked malcolm to msg me de .
hais .
im sadd you see .
me & mal only chatted like for AWHILE ?!
dhen we both said bye -
hais .
we werent like that in the past .
im blank !
i have nth to say .
well ,
i guess we are gonna it here soon man !
hais .
all bcos of the YOSHINOYA gang !
whad a FCUKING GANG !?
humji only -
hais .
sadded .
fcuking PISSED OFF (:


I AM SPEECHLESS ,

MALCOLM FOOH !
2 years of FRIENDSHIP ,
I DONT WANTO SEE IT ENDED UP IN THE DRAIN !
hais ~
whadtever
FORGET IT !

well !
27 10 06
today's a LONGGGGGG DAYYYY !
had my FD GOLD trained (:
quite well (:
memorised most of the commands (:
LOVES <3
everything went on fine (:
thank GOD -
bcos i have PRAYED (:
hmmm .
dhen met darl at CP
& had our luch
& bought my POLO T for CHOIR (:
loves <3
dhen went home ,
bathed ,
headed to kaki bukit (:
met doris ,
blah blah blah ~
took bus baq !
saw bangalahs ~
stared !
dhen tsk very loudly at them
haha -
lol !
hmmmm .
HAD A FUN TIME TODAY (:

but tml ):
got FD GOLD ACCRED ):
im afraid ill fail ):
but i have faith in GOD -
i even hope that i would get the TOP in FD GOLD again (:
but i only attended one lesson ,
so ..
cannot luhs ~
hais .
sadded (:
nvm .
at least a pass ?!
im contented -

my 4th post (:

i GOT MY BLOGSKIN CHANGED (:
bet you guys cant find this blogskin at the recent blogskin calendar (:
bcos i got dhis blogsking specially FROM ,
the date ;
100605 -
the day i started off with him (:
i wanted to take the blogskin of
10 10 06 -
bcos its the ONE YEAR of OUR BREAK UP (:
hmmm .
perhaps its really fated to be like that
bcos even the date wrote ,
my LAST GOODBYE -

but i gotta tell him ,
you are my FINALLY GOODBYE ,
LAST LOVER (:
you are the only guy whom i still rmb clearly whad you have said to me (:
in the past ,
whad we used to do .
where we used to be (:
i will NEVER FORGET those SWEET moments (:
LOVES <3

here comes my THIRD POST of the day (:

26 10 06
ppl !
im sadd !
comfort me !

i need your strength ,
i need your love ,
i need your hands to uphold me ):
i need your pair of listening ears -

hais .
i have made my FINAL ANSWER TO HIM *
the moment was so CRUCIAL
& there's NO WAY to REGRET it now ?!
im sorry if my answer had hurt you BOY ,
YOU will still be the BESTEST BOY ever in my LIFE (:
iloveyou <3

im doing all these is bcos of myself ,
yes im selfish .
i dont wanto see the guy that i LOVE to be with another girl ,
but i didnt wanto accept you either .
im sorry ):
im afraid to get HURT again you knw ?
how painful is it ?
do you even knw ?
dont tell me you are serious now ,
cos you always say that
but i dont see that at the end of the day )":
i only could say SORRY for dhis time .
i know you are shock (:
im really sorry !
yes i do love you ,
but there's SOMEONE who stands more than you in my HEART -
thats GOD & that boy (:
as a christain ,
i knw i gotta lead a christain life (:
i cannot OR i cann NEVER have a BLESSED LIFE with a NON BELIEVER ):
if only i cann ,
i would go
& accepted you -
but i will try to NEVER go against GOD (:

takecares .
LOVES <3

today's THREE POSTS are all sadd !
i mean the LAST TWO only (:

& the stupid irritating JULIN DARL pinched me !
she's an IDIOT cann ?!
she pinched me until BLUE BLUE BLACK BLACK luhs ~
its SUPER DUPER PAIN cann ?!
nvm .
i m gonna get my revenge baq (:
anyway ,
i pinched her tooo .
wahahha -
LOL !

once again .
im baq to 26 10 06 ;

must read my previous post first .
today you are lucky ,
i posted two posts .
haha -

hais .
im sadd !
all thanks to zeky !
he say alot of ppl different class as us ):
im sadd lo !
at least zeky is in the same class as me & bestee (:
i was still hoping to be in the same class as wengweng & malcolm ):
hais .
next year 3d le .
time really passes so quickly yea -
its gonna be 2007
& soon 2008 is here
& end time is coming too (:

humphs .
i really felt so weird to be in 3d ?!
i wanted to be in the same class as yangzhi son & wengweng bestee -
hais .
i hope they will takecare of themselves ya .
i wished we'll still be as close man -
hais .
LOVED <3

its not easy ):
ilove all of my friends -
i felt weird to be in the class with NO GIRLS frm my CLASS ?!
hais !
i hope grace really will accompany me up !
i felt so uneasy without malcolm being in the same class as me ):
cos since sec1 ,
we are in the same class til now
but sec3 ?!
S-E-P-A-R-A-T-E-D !
i hate dhis WORD !
ggrrr ...

all my bestest friends who will always comfort me
when im sadd is NOW GONE !
i hate CVSS !
TEACHERS SARKS
when dey separated me & ppl ):
ilovethem !
arghs !


zeky & me were like complaining there's lots of NERDS
in 3d !
hahha
i really dont feel gd without them in 3d ):
my jokers ):
my comforters (:
i will always rmb those funn & sad times luh ~
although there is SO SMALL CHANCES of us getting into same class
in sec4 ,
still ,
we have to study hard tgt (:
& scored alright !

LOVE ALWAYS <3
mwarks -

AIZAI GINNA PAH BUEY TOH !
please !
i hope dhis gang will nvr fall apart ):
& derrick ,
my dearest woomao !
dont quit sch leh !
promise ?!
hais -
if you quit
dhen aizai lost one ginna liao -
AIZAI is whad ?
aizai means that we will always stand tgt to conquer the obsticals ahead of us
& NEVER give up on each other
but derrick ,
how cann you quit sch now ?!
how disappointed am i NOT ?!
sians ~
I HOPE WE WILL STILL REMAIN THE SAME !
as close as EVER (:

memories will always be KEPT INSIDE MY HEART !
& i will cry frm the inside out of my SOUL !

26 10 06 ;

jialat .
handed in the e-streaming paper liaos ):
im afraid i will regret .
haha (:

i choose my 7 subjects liao !
i went online to help darl sign up first
dhen followed by myself .
hahah -

i took triple MATHS ?!
wahahha .
nobody took that before ?!
lol .
hmmm .
its hokays baby !
im gonnna be alright man -
i hope grace will come up with me !
i dont wanto be stress .
lol -
i hope grace will keep that secret =x

hmmm .
ohmygoodness !
i mistaken tuesday as wednesday
& i didnt go for work
bcos i tot got church choir rehearsal !
arghs !
i prepare finish liao
dhen cai come to realise sia ):
gosh ~

haha -

hmmm .
wednesday ,
which is ytd ,
i went to TCT for church choir rehearsal .
dear called me (:
msg-ed me .
i scolded him
teehee (:
how sweet of him to call me during my break time =p
im happy hokays (:

hmmm .
dhen he called me when i was on my way home .
crapped & i kap his fone =x
i love to do that .
teehee (:
hmmm .
dhen just reached home ,
dear called me again -.-
so fast ?!
wahaha .
ilovehim -

hmmm .
the most crucial moment
he told me smth
& i quickly chance subject
teehee (:
im scared luhs ~
stupid darl keep scolding me for changing subject with dear !
heh !
haha -

dhen eug very disgusting ?!
wahahah -
he's darn cute but ..
BUEY HIAO BYE !
ahah -
lol (:

loves <3
ilove ALFRED FOO SIK BOON -

anyway ,
i would like to say ..
if anyone DARES to SNATCH alfred away FRM ME ,
i make sure you die hokays -
i dont care how old are you .
if you are older than sec2 ,
jolly well fcuk off -
my boy is sec2 only -
NO JIE-DI lian PLEASE ~
& if you are sec1 ,
you knw who i am refering to uh ,
you jolly well dont mess ard uh !
i will GET ANGRY too (:
TRY ME NOT -

alfred is forever my boy -
loving him is greater than anything ,
but smaller than loving GOD (:
GOD then is MY EVERYTHING (:

& im in love wit **
wahahha -
oops =x

dhis time is REAL -
no more fake one ):
whahahas -
i hope it will come true (:

i would like to say goodbye to 100605
seriously (:
LOVES <3
im PROUD of you (:

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I EDITED THIS PHOTO !
i seriously LOVE HER !
i love dhis girl even more since aft ytd (:
she was there to pey me ,
despite many scoldings from her MOTHER ,
she still hang on a SMILE in front of me to cheer me up ,
cos she knws that im sadd
though she's feeling down too (:

i felt so bad
but still ,
iLOVEher (:
iLOVEgrace -
i will hold her tight in my EMBRACE when she needs me (:
i promise you , girl !
you are sucha beautiful SPECIAL girl in my heart -
sunita ,
you are too (:
jaslyn ,
so are you !

DONT LEAVE ME PLEASE ~
170506 ;
tiaraFOUR (:

24 10 06 '


err ..
im dead BORED ?!
not gonna work today i bet ):
have choir rehearsal later on at night (:
wahaha .
with olivia (:
iloveher !
i hope she wont ps me (:
LOVES <3

BYE ~

my contact lense is BROKEN ! ):

23 10 06 ;


went to sch ,
darling son & ppl kena canned ):
felt bad -
cos my son got CANNED !
issit painful ?
im worried .
haha -
dont seems to be like ?
hmmm
i hope they are hokay by now (:


mrs LIM & QUECK nagged at us ,
dhen ask us to go baq class
& make us make our way baq -.-
its not funn hokays ?!
dhen nag again ?!
whads the problem mans -
yunqing went out with gary ,
yunqing asked mrs LIM to wait ,
dhen dunno whad happened
& when gary come baq ,
he got canned too ?!
its a complicated story !
i thought he had his MC with him ?!
derrick was HENG luhs ~
his mom didnt gave permission ,
so cant cane him .
haha -
oops =x


well ,
went baq to class .
dunno whad happen to son .
didnt talk to him at first
& fought again -.-
played
& results are BAQ !
wahahas !
im excited !
woohoo (:

i got my maths & geo failed ):
my two most loving subs ):
nvm ,
i will strived for it NEXT YEAR (:
hmmm .
passed 7 subjects (:
im pleased ?!
IM NOT !
i used to fail NO SUBJECT hokay !
im disappointed in MYSELF -

hurhurs ~
slacked for the whole day (:
during recess ,
look that that cecil dhen this GIRL looked baq at me !
im looking at CECIL for GOD'S SAKE !
NOT looking at you LUHS !
BHB !
& dont you ever dare to DIAO ME .
you MIGHT regret (:
JUST JOKING ~

hmmm .
slacked luhs ~
whadever .
really is WHOLE DAY ?!
hmmm.
went for arasu's class ,
had a terrorist show to watch ,
but none of us seemed interested ?!
so cher' no choice
but to change to CARTOON !
yayyay !
DONALD DUCK !
son was angry !
wahahas .
was angry with me cos i disiao-ed him
but claimed that he's cute !? -.-
hmmm .
went to com lab ,
blah blah blah ~
some NICE THINGS happened (:
ilove it .
& my freaking SON got me into indoor FREE escape THEMEPARK again ):
he pushed me ard the whole lab
& everyone was like
; ' yangzhi , dont bully her luhs ~ '
& ya luhs !
dont bully me luh !
im ur mother leh !
no respect . '
haha .
teehee (:

then JANET ONG's lesson .
she came in
& all the way diao-ed jiahao ):
why mus she do that -.-
i DONT LIKE IT (:
i helped jiahao de lo .
jiahao so innocent
though he's sort of mischevious ?!
lol -
but he's still my grandpa (:
onion !
oops =x
granny will kill me if she sees this right , garlic ?!
wahaha -
LOVES <3

dhen me & grace were slping like there's no tml ?!
i was having headache thats why i could slp till so SHIOK ?!
wahahas -
went to toilet halfway when i was slping .
my aunty came ?!
pain-ness !
cramp-ness (:
went baq to class ,
slp again !
was hoping that JANET ONG would switch the movie off ?!
then was DISMISSAL !
went to toilet again !
wahahas -
went to canteen
& met seniors
some scolded me ?!
some praised me (:
hmmm -
went to look at the t-score .
grace & i were in the TOP 40 (:
- claps * -
LOVES <33

darl & jas went into same class next yr (:
hmmm .
im afraid (:
dhen headed to redcross ):
& did some stuffs -
some fcuking ppl jus simply pissed me OFF ?!
not some but jus ONE !
sec1 level in charge big deal ?
talk to her like talking to wall -.-
give me attitude some more ):
i didnt do ANYTHING hokays !
jus cant stand dhis kinda PPL !
whadever (:
gin me for all SHE WANTS (:
guess she's jus pissed off with me ,
cos i got top 40 or bcos of the post ?
oopps =x
i hope i didnt expose (:
lol -
perhaps no bah (:
hmmm .
dhen headed off -
went to makan ,
& rushed home -
bathed .
shited .
prepared (:
OFF FOR WORK !
sister called & scolded me ):
nvm .
shall forgive bcos GOD loves ME (:
dhen went to work .


i tot i could started off with a GOOD DAY ?!
but contact lense were torn ,
sister scolds ):
boss is here ):
fcuking awak oso here -
everyone is here .
& lion is here -.-

but today lion is abit DIFFERENT (:
he said i walked fast (:
first time .
last week was quarrel .
& this week is PEACE !
forever PEACE okays !
wahahas -
hmmm .
many things happened -
boss shouted at me in front of many costumers ,
drinks were poured over my body ):
hais .
felt that im a failure ?!
im sorry ,
but i didnt mean to do that (:

went to toilet ,
actually cried -
kept it to myself .
didnt wanted anyone to knw (:
but was found out .
i lied ):
smth happened ,
went home .
met grace ,
walked to my hse dere de playground (:
slacked .
talked about many things ,
i love her (:
she's the first one in tiaraFOUR who were there ?!
hmmm .
& she said this ,
listen up clearly okay !
; '' jus now mr kuan call jiahao go ,
he also should have called me mah ! '
& she also said this to me
; " if you dont like the job ,
dhen quit .
no use working for no meaing - "

I FELT SO TOUCHED when i heard that ,
thats SO ENCOURAGE - ing (:

grace granny was ANGRY
that mr kuan snatched jiahao away ?!
wahahas .
oops =x

hmmm .
talked to grace about church stuffs ?
& many many !
end time is here ,
i gotta help !
her salvation gotta be SAVED by JESUS (:

i speak AGAINST ALL DEVIL
& close the door
& nvr open for the devil to come in anymore (:

i have learnt ,
when we serve GOD ,
devil is angry .
he wans us to get into trouble
& baqslide us from GOD
that we wont have the feeling of serving ,
but by right ,
we shld continue to serve happily to make
THE DEVILS ANGRY (:

always remember ,
no matter how weak you are ,
JESUS is always here .
when you felt weak & tired ,
it is when GOD is going to do HIS part (:

hokays !
sent gracey granny to her peilin's hse
dhen went home (:
was nearby luhs ~
wahahas -

reached home .
waiting for 12am
& it will be 24 10 06
& we cann submit those subjects we want to take (:
i helped darl to take too (:

darl took ;
ss / history ,
chem / bio ,
D&T ,
& the rest of the compulsory subjects (:

i took ;
ss / geo ,
chem / phy ,
A* maths ,
POA ,
& the rest of the compulsory subjects (:

im sadd !
i have to take 7 subs ):

dhen grace told me ,
ah kuan called her
& told her there's smth wrong with her t-score ):
i hope she will still be in the TOP 40 with me (:
if not i will be LONELY ):
i feel mr kkuan is LYING !
wahahas (:

then choose the subs (:
some subs are adviced by seniors & sister (:
LOVED <33

i gotta go off to bed soon -
my eyes are closing !
WAHAHAHAS .
loves <3

GOODNIGHT PPL (:
iloveyou -

my special declares & messages to all my love ones esp ALFRED FOO SIK BOON & tiaraFOUR who always have been by my side .

thankew dear (: always , you are the one who were there to call me when im crying or when im down , i always believe thats jus coincidence but now , i think its fates & telepathy that brought us baq tgt like how we were in the past (:
*100605 ;
the date that i will NEVER forget & i mean i will NEVER forget -
our SWEET SWEET MEMORIES (:
you are always the special guy of MY LIFE -
my sweetest boyfriend i ever had !
but ITS ALL MEMORIES NOW (:
i dont love you anymore ,
but i jus miss our times where we spent tgt (:
tiaraFOUR (:
iloveyou as much as i cann (:
170506 ;
the date i will NEVER forget too .
though we had quarrels along the way ,
its okays .
its NORMAL (:
& now we are baq to the close us AGAIN (:
iloveyou
& dont ever leave me (:


# ` A hug is a SMILE of the HEART that touches us through the embrace of caring arms
# ` a special friend like you is truly cared 'bout
# ` like bread & butter , we just cant do without each other (:
# ` thanks for always sticking by !
# ` whad have i got for you ?
- a hug
- a kiss
- jokes to laugh at
- pretty flowers
- chocolates ..
- a shoulder to lean on .. anytime , day or night !
# ` take extra CARE OF yourself (:
# ` a warm takecare HUG jus for YOU
# ` all the best to you
# ` its double the funn when im with you (:
# ` rmb to keep in touch =D

# ` bcos of you , i have a reason to smile , to dream , to be happy . & you really mean a lot to me -
# ` your friendship is an everyday kind of thing , LIKE coffee , something i cann count on to perk me up . & carry me through the day . thanks for being there for me (:

# ` it must be tele-pathy , for whenever im down & blue , you are there to lift my spirits !

# ` you bring on the sun , thanks for being my ALL - WEATHER friend !

22 10 06 '

today ,
woke up at 9 plus (:
so early luhs ~
ytd slept so LATE cann ?! -
talked to dear on the fone (:
til midnight plus bahhs .
wahhaha .
he wanns to bring me to vivocity !
ilovehim (:

* as time passes ,
memories are bringing us baq to our past (:
where we used to talked on the phone -
i always wonder if only memories could turn us baq to
the sweet couples like how we were in the past ?
but i knw ,
we cant (:
i dont ask for more ,
i jus wann a everlasting friendship with him -

hmmm .
prepared everything ,
reborned my hair temporary (:
& met yunyu at cp .
headed to tm ,
she bought bb tea
& i bought my puff (:
headed to church ,
prepared our hearts
& prayed wit cell first
dhen will pastor (:
& went into hall 10 -
rehearsed (:
ppl came in .
was so nervous (:
prayed ,
GOD calm me down (:
found peace !
wahahas -
darl , granny & fav
came in wit cell ppl (:
saw all of them -
happy 0 !
wahahas .
looked at another side ,
saw him !
wahahas .
it has been long since i last seen him in church (:
was really happy to see him there
when its my first time on stage serving in choir (:
loves !
was touched .
saw darl & granny & him ,
dey came to support me ?!
i so love them cann ?!
lol -

okays .
pastor preached ,
went baq .
finished preaching ,
went baq to stage & sing (:

went to con room ,
dhen pastor sengli preached -
yes ,
i agree (:
end time is coming ,
we have to help our friends & family 's salvation to get saved
before the heaven 's door is CLOSED -

dhen had choir debrief .
actually skipped the next week de choir ,
but laoshi pulled me baq ):
wahahas .
but now ,
i cant think that way .
bcos i have to serve god in choir WHOLE HEARTEDLY (:
yes lord ,
you are my master (:

dhen had cell ,
dismissed -
went off ard 6plus ,
didnt meet dear
bcos jaslyn was with me ,
dhen dear dont wann -
& so coincidence luh ~
dear was at TM
when im at TM too (:
teehee -
had an arguement with dear before that ,
bcos he went to play lan without telling -
though we are not meeting ,
but if we are leh ?
he at least must give me a call right ?!
lol !


hmmm .
shopped .
& went home .
took 27 ,
went to RM ,
bought bb tea ,
walked home with jas ,
dear called ,
jas interrupted ?!
arghs !
if not ,
hahas .
jas ,
you are irritating !
haha .
hmmm .
dhen quarrelled again -
i hang up -
both of us were angry .
hais .
dont knw why -
jaslyn luhs ~
hahas .
jk !
hmmm -
whadtever .
hope will be fine aft today -

dear i love you luhs ~
dont be angry ,
though im angry too (:
since you have apologised to me ,
i forgive you luhs ~
wahahs -
lol -

hmmm .
ilove JOEY !
she's SO SO SO CUTE !
she cut her hair (:
& she's sweeet luhs ~
she sent me dhis msg ,
' heys ! rmb to go up the stage with confidence next week (:
today as i look up the stage , i saw a tiny girl with sweet eyes .
heh , she claps with her small hands & i could see the gentleness within her (:
& that girl is YOU .
dont be burden whether you got high on stage not .
JUST believe that GOD is pleased with whad you did .
verse for you ;
"if you believe , you will receive whadever you ask for in prayer ." matthew 21:22 '

hmmm .
so sweet of JOEY right ?
though im not sweet & gentle luhs ~
but i show dhis msg is jus to say that ,
this msg that she had sent ,
had really encouraged me ALOT (:
i cant believe that someone jus said that im gentle .
its the FIRST TIME !
wahahas -
oops =x

& JOEY actually said ,
yuan lai imma mu lao hu .
hahas -

wunyen said im gentle on stage too ,
but violent in real life .
hahas .
oops =x
im sorry -
im lykdat -
teehee (:


end off le bah !
jaslyn wore neck bra today !
wahahas !
lol !
hmmm .
& mr vincent toh jun jie actually apologise to me ,
& ask us for chance to change ,
i think i shld give him ONE LAST CHANCE (:


my next choir training is on WEDNESDAY (:
wahahas -
with olivia (:
ilove olivia too -
she wont pangseh me de !
unlike others (:
i was so lonely when i go for choir last week
cos ppl pangseh me -
sadd -
lol !

byebye ppl !
dear ,
iloveyou !
dont be angry (:

22 10 06 '

today ,
woke up at 9 plus (:
so early luhs ~
ytd slept so LATE cann ?! -
talked to dear on the fone (:
til midnight plus bahhs .
wahhaha .
he wanns to bring me to vivocity !
ilovehim (:

* as time passes ,
memories are bringing us baq to our past (:
where we used to talked on the phone -
i always wonder if only memories could turn us baq to
the sweet couples like how we were in the past ?
but i knw ,
we cant (:
i dont ask for more ,
i jus wann a everlasting friendship with him -

hmmm .
prepared everything ,
reborned my hair temporary (:
& met yunyu at cp .
headed to tm ,
she bought bb tea
& i bought my puff (:
headed to church ,
prepared our hearts
& prayed wit cell first
dhen will pastor (:
& went into hall 10 -
rehearsed (:
ppl came in .
was so nervous (:
prayed ,
GOD calm me down (:
found peace !
wahahas -
darl , granny & fav
came in wit cell ppl (:
saw all of them -
happy 0 !
wahahas .
looked at another side ,
saw him !
wahahas .
it has been long since i last seen him in church (:
was really happy to see him there
when its my first time on stage serving in choir (:
loves !
was touched .
saw darl & granny & him ,
dey came to support me ?!
i so love them cann ?!
lol -

okays .
pastor preached ,
went baq .
finished preaching ,
went baq to stage & sing (:

went to con room ,
dhen pastor sengli preached -
yes ,
i agree (:
end time is coming ,
we have to help our friends & family 's salvation to get saved
before the heaven 's door is CLOSED -

dhen had choir debrief .
actually skipped the next week de choir ,
but laoshi pulled me baq ):
wahahas .
but now ,
i cant think that way .
bcos i have to serve god in choir WHOLE HEARTEDLY (:
yes lord ,
you are my master (:

dhen had cell ,
dismissed -
went off ard 6plus ,
didnt meet dear
bcos jaslyn was with me ,
dhen dear dont wann -
& so coincidence luh ~
dear was at TM
when im at TM too (:
teehee -
had an arguement with dear before that ,
bcos he went to play lan without telling -
though we are not meeting ,
but if we are leh ?
he at least must give me a call right ?!
lol !


hmmm .
shopped .
& went home .
took 27 ,
went to RM ,
bought bb tea ,
walked home with jas ,
dear called ,
jas interrupted ?!
arghs !
if not ,
hahas .
jas ,
you are irritating !
haha .
hmmm .
dhen quarrelled again -
i hang up -
both of us were angry .
hais .
dont knw why -
jaslyn luhs ~
hahas .
jk !
hmmm -
whadtever .
hope will be fine aft today -

dear i love you luhs ~
dont be angry ,
though im angry too (:
since you have apologised to me ,
i forgive you luhs ~
wahahs -
lol -

hmmm .
ilove JOEY !
she's SO SO SO CUTE !
she cut her hair (:
& she's sweeet luhs ~
she sent me dhis msg ,
' heys ! rmb to go up the stage with confidence next week (:
today as i look up the stage , i saw a tiny girl with sweet eyes .
heh , she claps with her small hands & i could see the gentleness within her (:
& that girl is YOU .
dont be burden whether you got high on stage not .
JUST believe that GOD is pleased with whad you did .
verse for you ;
"if you believe , you will receive whadever you ask for in prayer ." matthew 21:22 '

hmmm .
so sweet of JOEY right ?
though im not sweet & gentle luhs ~
but i show dhis msg is jus to say that ,
this msg that she had sent ,
had really encouraged me ALOT (:
i cant believe that someone jus said that im gentle .
its the FIRST TIME !
wahahas -
oops =x

& JOEY actually said ,
yuan lai imma mu lao hu .
hahas -

wunyen said im gentle on stage too ,
but violent in real life .
hahas .
oops =x
im sorry -
im lykdat -
teehee (:


end off le bah !
jaslyn wore neck bra today !
wahahas !
lol !
hmmm .
& mr vincent toh jun jie actually apologise to me ,
& ask us for chance to change ,
i think i shld give him ONE LAST CHANCE (:


my next choir training is on WEDNESDAY (:
wahahas -
with olivia (:
ilove olivia too -
she wont pangseh me de !
unlike others (:
i was so lonely when i go for choir last week
cos ppl pangseh me -
sadd -
lol !

byebye ppl !
dear ,
iloveyou !
dont be angry (:

# ` everything jus seemed like its fading aways aft you left me ' %`

21 10 06 ;

OHMYGOODNESS !
i woke up so early cos dominic said today got meeting ,
dhen in the end cancel again ):
dots .
nvm .
hmmm .
feel like meeting dear .
but afraid no time
cos he's still slping now luhs ~
whad a pig !
hahas .
lol

hmmm.
ard five mus go darl's hse liaos .
go celebrate deep wit her (:
grace & jas coming bah .
wahahas .
thats whad darl told me .
wahahas (:

hmmm .
oh shit !
haven buy polo tee for tml's choir !
die liaos .
dont think cann go out with dear le
cos im buying with darl .
hurhurs .
lol .
im sadd !
hahas .
oops =x

i hope that dear will takecares of himself .
if only i could go & pey him .
i really wish upon a star
that he wont go overseas for trainin ):
if not iwil be lonely ):
NVM !
im going out with tiaraFOUR(:

anyways ,
good news !
vincent toh jun jie
that irritating FCUKING instructor of CVSS redcross ,
jus sent me email & critisized me .
i had my reply
& im requesting to quit (:
i mean i quit !
i dont need to wait for his reply or agreement ,
i really dont see the reason why shld i stay ,
when all the insults are upon me for NO REASON?
hais .
im sadd .
i knw shining stars are falling apart
but i have no choice .
sir forced me to made this choice .
now im talking to xuanle .
hoping he wont quit .
he'll have BRIGHT future .
but i dont .
so i dont wanto waste anymore time .
i rather spend time with my girls ,
& make sure dey dont drift away frm me (:

xuan le ;
i hope you wont quit .
future ahead is useful for you .
i dont need CCA points ,
thats why im quiting
as for you all those that needed CCA points
for JC ,
to get a post in the 2007 committee .
im sorry to quit ,
when i asked you not to quit ,
i knw i broke my promise
but i have got NO CHOICE ):

ppl !
i jus felt so stress up .
everything jus turns out to be whad im not expecting it to be .
it jus turns out to be opposite .
i felt i dont even worth a cent ?!
im a NOBODY in redcross .
though in sch i still find happiness .
but redcross is the first thing in my life
that i once loved & hated so much ,
& now i lost my interest in redcross totally .
i tot i would built up
& love redcross as much again ,
but now ,
its no longer the same .
redcross with a UNREASONABLE SIR ,
cann NEVER SUCCEED in things we do .
redcross WAS the TOP PRIORITY in my LIFE ,
but now ,
it cann nvr be MY TOP PRIORITY anymore .
im stressed up .
i stand up for my own RIGHT
but was scolded for that .
i dont see the reason why shld i get all these scoldings ?!
from today onwards ,
i will just shut my mouth .
as i said ,
i will SHUT my mouth
& WASH my hands OFF redcross
frm today (:
dont dare me !


LIFE IS TOTALLY MEANINGLESS (:

20 10 06

went to help out in cousin's wedding .
well ,
diaos ~
saw ***
mood changed (:
asked me personally ,
aft seeing ,
i feel like puking !
wahahas .
lol !

hokays .
tried out gowns & stuffs ,
slacked -
played with incnasious ,
he's darn NAUGHTY !
dont blame him
cos he's still a lil boy (:
hahas .
indeed he's really cute (:

well ,
went to kopitiam ,
bought drinks ,
slacked .
went home ,
played audition
& so many ppl called me -.-
made me lose my game !!
fcuk off man !
except for alfred !
he called me ,
asking me to ton ,
dhen i was like ,
he said he would call me
but actually he was waiting for my call .
diaos ~
then ended up cant meet ):
im sadd !
arghs !
freaking redcross !
curse the redcross !
tml morning got rc meeting .
diaos !~

happy deepavali (:
im gng to darl's hse tml !
wahahas .
lol .
thats rather cool .
yea (:
teehee -

enjoy ppl !
gonna meet dear tml first
before gng to darl's hse ,
mayb aft rc (:

ilove grace (:
she msged me ,
& she's touched .
im happy that ,
at least she knws how i felt ,
i really need someone to understand me .
of course ,
i would be more than willing to allow her to understand me (:
wahahas .
loves girl (:
cheers -

19 10 06 ;

took baq results .
shant say how much i got .
im so FCUKING disappointed in MYSELF !
I WAS FCUKING SHOCK TO SEE MY RESULT !
i flunk my subjects ):
hais .
ireally dont wanto say abt all these anymore .
exams jus make me feel like puking !
if only i could turn baq time '
im still not able to accept the fact that i flunk THAT SUBJECT !
FCUK !

okays ;
whadtever ~
was crying ,
nobody seems to care ? -x
was even MORE UPSET .
went to toilet ,
saw constance & lirong .
lirong was inside the cubic .
constances was really GOOD (:
she comforted me (:
ILOVEHER (:
though i jus knw her this year ,
it seems like i knw her longer than any others do .
she held me in her embrace ,
i was really touched -
THANKS CONSTANCE (:
hmmm .
then gladys came ,
i was crying still ,
didnt entertained her .
i was rather bad .
in a FCUKING bad mood '
SORRY GLADYS !!
i actually tsk-ed her accidentally ,
sorry ,
i didnt mean it (:

then went baq to class ,
darl msg-ed me ,
sort of quarrelled with her ):
im sorry but im really disappointed '

shall not talk abt WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN ME & DARL (:
was rather upset then ):

HMMM .
dear called me when im in class (:
chatted & blah ~
was rather touched by dear *
he came saying ,
'dont worry , everything will be fine -'
though it doesnt helped much , =x
i still appreciate him for that comforting words (:
his bbus came , he boarded
& he seemed tired (:
guess he wanted to slp ,
so we jus put down (:

then next was son !
LIM YANG ZHI is my BESTEST son i ever HAD (:
he comforted me too (:
he msg-ed me
& ask me not to worry
cos i was grumbling -x
wahahas
son , i APPRECIATE you (:
i hope i would get into same class as son too -
he's SWEET (:

hokays !
followed by esther sister (:
she msg-ed me too .
she's sucha caring jie ?!
ILOVEHER -
ever since we got into different sch ,
we seemed to talk lesser & lesser ):
luckilyy now we are baq to talking terms (:
i appreciate all her comforts (:
her comforts are the bestest among the best (:

then nth to do in class liaos ~
my baobei cousin called me (:
i was rather even touched !!
cann u imagine ?!
whn u are feeling SO DOWN ,
but all the ppl jus came pass by to drop u a call ?!
hahas .
iloveher (:
I HAVE PROMISED HER TO TON WITH HER !
haha .
im forced to .
hahas =x

slacked in class ,
listen to mr kuan crap .
ah kuan act cute -x

hmmm .
went to cp to makan ,
dhen headed home .
cousin called ,

skipped the FCUKING redcross
cos my brother met with an accident .
lol
believe it or not luhs !
fcuking vincent toh jun jie !
everytime only knw how to act big ?
ah beng ah ?
qi guar mai ?
try me luhs ~


went home .
still wasnt at a GOOD MOOD YET -
was thinking abt smth
dhen suddenly fell aslp =p
woke up
& its alrdy 5.30 ?!
shit !
im late !
i quickly get ready
& meet yunyu at cp
cos gotta go to bukit timah
for choir rehearsal for church dhis sunday (:
hmmm .
wasnt enthu at first ,
laoshi spoke to me ,
she said ,
'u are worshipping the LORD ,
not other things '
she wants me to concentrate .
lol -.-
dhen went so crazy & enthu
haha
all thanks to dhis malay guy dunno cal whad luhs~
forgotten his name
wahahas .
smth like sharu ?

hahas .
headed home & blah ~
dear left me with many miss calls ,
called baq ,
he dulan
cos i nvr ans ,
dhen explained .
hahas .
nth happened (:
& we had our SECRET CONVERSATION (:
hmmm .
took mrt home .
saw elizabeth ,
lol
haha !
the bf shorter than her sia .
hahas !
oops =x
whadtever .
she ask her to be so xialan to me ?!
i dont give a DAMN okays (:
home-d (:

THATS THE END OF TODAY LUHS ~



20 10 06

lol .
as usual .
took baq paper ,
crapped ,
though was rather sad .
asked mr kuan if could still take
chem & phy ; geo & ss ; add maths .
he was like ,
any classes cann take ,
dhen i was like ,
'phew ?!'
i hope i will get into 3c next yr please ?
hahas .
with faith ,
i feel i cann go 3c (:
hmmm .
played & stuffs .
had a great time with tiaraFOUR & son & ppl (:
miss derrick .
he didnt come for days .
hope he would come baq (:
sadd !
monday son & ppl getting canning ):
actually its today .
i jus pray hard that there wont be any canning
or the canning wont be pain (:

slacked & slept for the whole day in sch .
listened to mp3
& kena caught by mr kuan
but he didnt say anything (:
indeed he's really a GOOD TEACHER ! (:
HE 's a damn cute teacher oso ,
i scolded mr wong fcuk
dhen he say
'tsk ! dont like that scold '
his reaction was so bloody hell cute luhs !

after sch ,
went home immediately .
didnt go for redcross ,
tht fcukin vincent knw i have cousin's wedding to attend luhs ~
whadtever he wans luhs~
at least i informed him one week bfore hand ?!
lol !
& if i attend rc ,
its alrdy very gd ,
he shld like jus thank god !
i haven bame that the fcuking rc made me fail my subs okays !
cb .
redcross really sucks luhs ~
caused me to faill many subjects
cos of the FCUKING trainings held by the FCUKING vincent toh EVERYDAY !
ITS EVERYDAY OKAYS !
its not once in a week hokays !
its bloody everyday luhs !
i cursed REDCROSS in CVSS to C-O-L-L-A-P-S-E


darl & granny sent me home .
crapped -
was upset ,
cos darl & granny told me smth ):
nvm ,
nvr in my life i would expect that to happen again ):
hais .

i still felt darl & grace are so far away frm me ):
hais .
i jus wanna say ,
whadtever u listen ,
u wanto believe ,
i seriously have nth to say .
both hate me bfore ,
whad to do ?
we got baq tgt so closely
but now ?
getting further again ?
i cant stop.
put urself into my shoes ?
feel how i felt (:
understand me '

sunita darl was upset with me
cos she said i got closer to grace nowadays ,
well ,
but me & grace are still not as close ?!
i still felt she hates me ,
you knw ?
hais -

whadtever luhs ~

grace ,
everything is up to you to decide ,
i nvr wanto lose sucha gd fren like u ,
rmb ?
u were the ONLY ONE who comforted me with words -
i dont wanto see u drifting away frm me ,
but if u insisted ,
i have nothing to say .
its ur choice .
if u think im not gd enuff as a fren
or u dont wanna get too close with me ,
im fine with it .
yes ,
& now ,
our friendship are also put to a test ,
it depends on how we are going to get through it tgt .
i cant say much cos we are both frm different religion .
many times i told sunita ,
that you are my hope , my life & my all ,
i live to serve GOD
& i always wanted to bring to church ,
u came ,
but u didnt receive ,
i was sadd ,
i blamed myself quietly inside ,
i prayed that u would come dhis sunday ,
cos i thought i could touch u with my performance ,
i wouldnt have joined choir ,
seriously its partly for u
& partly u knw i love to sing .
i have nth much to say ,
though we are not very close ,
i still do appreciate our friendship & u .
i wanna get even closer to u !
yes ,
we used to have laughters along when we are out tgt ,
but whad happened now ?!
im speechless darling -
reply to me ~
hais ~

sunita ,
darl , we shared the most times tgt .
we shared weels & sorrows .
laughters & happiness .
if jealousy is gonna break us up ,
i think we are jus too fragil .
& it means we arent strong at all .
everytime when we are out ,
laughters & noises are everywhere ,
but now ?
it seems like we have no more laughters within .
i guess every friendships have to come to an end ,
but i really nvr wanna end mine & urs .
its really a gift frm god ,
& now our frienship is now put to a test ,
it depends if we could get through it tgt ?
perhaps through faith we cann ,
but i dont think u would believe ?
i appreciate u as much as i do .
but it seems like ,
we are no longer belong to the same mentality ,
we no longer have the same spiritual thinking ?
we no longer cann be as close like how we were in the past ?
we are no longer as bonded anymore ,
which makes me think,
we couldnt sit through this friendship test tgt ):
we nvr knw .
but i dont wanto lose you .
i dont whads ur thinking too ?
reply to me ~



anyways ,
yes ,
im sad !
life is really rather unfair ?!
i could jus lose someone precious
& gain a new friend
but i would give up on everything for grace & sunita ,
trust me (:

& i have to tell dear ,
thanks dear for being by my side ytd ,
when im sadd ,
u nvr failed to be there (:
i promised i'll ton with you ,
but give me time .
i have to ask my parents .
we will ton tgt with my babe cousins dey all yea (:
loves -

hey ppl !
i still gotta say ,
dhis time round ,
im gonna get HOD for ART again !
i dont care !
how could i get such GOOD MARKS for HOD ?!
wahahas !
i got HOD FOR ART for semester 3 (:
& now ,
EOY ,
its MINE again ! (:

wishh me okays !
teehee !
yes im greedy .
but thats my hope (: